How come i find faults in everything, wrongs wherever there should be rights... How come i'm bored even though there is lots to do, i could do something fun yet i don't... There is something i miss, i know what it is, yet i don't make an effort to capture what i want... Lazy? No, a coward...

Afraid that i won't be able to capture it, that my efforts will be in vain... Is it worth giving it my all?

There is no pity in the abyss, even though you tried. In the abyss it doesn't matter if you tried and failed or if you didn't even try...

The only difference is that the ones who tried should have knowledge, not the knowledge on how to success of course, but knowledge of what not to do.

With that knowledge, a way out of the abyss should be possible, but only if you are willing to try, of course you might fail again, but that should give you new knowledge... Knowledge isn't heavy to bear, it shouldn't make the climb more difficult and if it does, you obviously made the same misstakes again....